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CliffSide Revelations

This is Obscure!!!

resisting this conjecture
prove them all wrong some day
will this stay true?

blatant disregard

for your life in a cradle
for their eyes open wide
perceiving only lies

but what is the truth?

what are you waiting for?
we can handle anything
what are you waiting for?
we can Handle anything

maybe it’s time to move
my ideas are that of demons
get a car
drive it far
off a fucking cliff

temporarily united
separated at death
then I witness the truth
I have nothing to lose

maybe it’s time to move
my ideas are that of demons
get a car
drive it far
off a fucking cliff

I shout all my wisdom
I’m gifted and wishful
I witness the truth
There’s nothing to lose

maybe it’s time to move
my ideas are that of demons
get a car
drive it far
off a fucking cliff

what are you waiting for?
we can handle anything
what are you waiting for?
we can Handle anything

Is this body true?
what’s worth it to me,
is worth nothing to you
tires grip solid ground,
then i reach for the sky
leaving everything behind
my time with you is through

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Enigmatic Feel

I have a lot of speech to say
so I speak to the birds
that fly away

I have a lot of time, delayed
procrastinate
led astray

I had open arms, embrace
but already it’s done
washed away

I had a lot of love, decayed
from the teeth, buried inside
when i begged for you to stay

have you seen
my peace of mind?
my sense of judgment
and track of time
whispering, enigmatic feel
digging up that hole to fill

when the righteous lead
and take control
I’ll be standing
out in the cold
suffering, but living real.
waiting for a soul to steal

they say flaws are perfection
scars deep in the ground,
are hard to hide
a difficult sound
to rationalize

when reason flows
and this body knows
I’ll be the one standing
out in the cold
suffering, but living real.
waiting for a soul to steal.

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Something I wrote today

Title: Remember With A Smile

[verse]
shattering the distant targets
watching it blow away

putting words in my mouth
cause i have nothing to say

fragile are the conquered
but they’ll laugh at your dismay

hungry are their lungs that breath the air
of you sovereign decay

[chorus]

couldn’t see my life without you
i was blinded and made a fool
so i took you down with me
rip me
see me
laughing in the pool

of remembrance

it’s all one big story to tell
a haunting deja vu

[2nd verse variant]

placing your bombs underneath the car
until it’s time to make a move

on a road paved with shame
made of all the people you’ve subdued

destroying all the longing the memories
justify what you can’t prove

all the allegations placed at your doorstep
they mean nothing to you

[chorus]

couldn’t see my life without you
i was blinded and made a fool
so i took you down with me
rip me
see me
laughing in the pool

of remembrance

it’s all one big story to tell
a haunting deja vu

*

I hope you feel fine
Throwing me away
Disposing of a person
Who loved and cared about you,
And would’ve fought to the death
And waited through a storm
And would’ve torn himself apart
Continued just to have you.

Maybe someday
Someone will dig
Through the trash and find me,
Maybe realize
What I’m worth,
And do anything to keep me.

Or maybe that day
Won’t come at all
And you’ll forget all
Of the greatest times
Not remembering why
It was ever something strong
Maybe this
Is our final goodbye

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Never To Know:

Commitment is clear
No urgency shown
So gather your masks
Let’s head for the road

Let’s drink from
The youth of our country
Never to know
Their freedom’s a joke

Let’s eat from
The ashes and carnage
Never to know
We’ll be all alone

Deception is red
Truth is unknown
so gather your friends
And leave from your home

Get your redemption
From becoming the drone
Shut your mouth, never tell
Let us annex your soul

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This is a song I wrote inpired by the attempts people make to try and suffocate their pain with addictions.

It’s called My Inner War

The space between
You seem far away
I crawl beneath
And lock my doors
They’re coming for me
But I’m not really sure
The drugs that I’m taking
I can’t help but want more

My legs give out. I fall to the ground.
I stare at my ceiling like something profound
My closet is empty. my skeletons burned.
I cling to my past, like I care for concern

Candles burn bright
Cityscape lights
Thousands wander
I’m just a number

Years may pass by
Ones you hold close die
No need to suffer
Addictions grow stronger

They’ll find me soon
I hope they lock me away
Give me the reason
Why was I ever born?
I’ll never serve purpose
Morality caved
When I was a child
In my inner war

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the faces we all make

are mirrored with discrace

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Take The Staircase

empty causes
shackled in pain
no applause
ongoing mistakes
hung up on a cross that we all but forgot
saying his name has no
reputation today
we lick the blood from the knife
barely sleep at night
this is what we are

fault lines
ignorance building
up to the sky
take the staircase
you will never reach the top of this steeple
corruption takes flight
we lick the blood from the knife
and barely sleep at night
this is what we are

holy water tries to relate
(never enough)
(never enough)
the statues contemplate
(never enough)
(never enough)
put a knife in his side
(never enough)
(never enough)
devil watches with pride
(never enough)
(never enough)
watch with fear
as they tear down the temple
like they tear down their lives

and we just can’t see your face
contagiously seeking a way
fractured and beaten in shame
so let them all soil your name

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